In all of the Chronicles of Narnia, Puddleglum just may be one of my favorite characters. I’m not so sure it’s his attitude that is so enduring, but his change in attitude throughout the story of The Silver Chair. And then there’s just the eccentricity of being a marshwiggle that’s kind of cool.
But, Puddleglum is downcast and pessimistic throughout most of the story. He continues to think the worst of every situation…the firewoods probably wet, or it will be wet because it looks like rain…or the journey’s long but it doesn’t matter because we probably won’t even make it half way…
that sort of thing.
And it’s exhausting just reading his pessimism. I can’t imagine how exhausting it would be to actually be that pessimistic.
Although, tonight at work, I had my fair run at being Puddleglum.
I was sent to the liquor store to give the cashier over there her 15-minute break. Nothing unusual. I was standing there in front of the little electric heater, actually enjoying the quiet for a bit, when the phone rang. I’m not over there for more than a couple of minutes when this happens. I answer the phone – it’s one of the Customer Service Managers telling me that when I get back to the main store, I’m supposed to meet with the manager. There’s no other explanation.
So, I hang up the phone, and for the next 15-20 minutes my mind is racing with all the different scenarios. I’m in trouble: maybe they’re “coaching” me on something…I was short on my drawer the last shift…I’ve done something completely wrong (no telling what)…
Or maybe they’re commending me for something…maybe I’ve done something right…
no, I’ve probably done something wrong and they want to talk to me about it.
I’m seriously sweating it out and finally the cashier comes back from her break and head back to the main store. I then have to wait a few more minutes while the manager finishes some job she’s doing before she leads me to the back office.
Turns out it was just time for my 90-day evaluation.
I’m a sold performer on the Wal-Mart team. Good to know. And I exceed expectations with my customer service skills. Apparently customers have “bragged” about my cheery disposition.
So, yeah…it wasn’t anything major. It was, in fact, pretty uplifting.
But, of course, when I’m reading tonight’s Narnia passage and it’s about Puddleglum’s lack of a cheery dispositiong…I couldn’t help but flash back to my afternoon at work.
It’s hard to be optimistic all the time, especially when it really does seem like everything just goes wrong anyway.
I left my job in Ohio confident that my life was going to work out one way, and I would be happy with that. Turns out it’s been NOTHING like I thought it would be. In fact, it’s been an adventure quite worthy of Puddleglum’s worldview.
I didn’t get the job I thought I was going to get.
I went back to school full-time instead – definitely the high point of the last couple years.
My dog died.
I didn’t find a job before I finished my year of study.
I still haven’t found a job.
My grandmother had major heart surgery and months of complications.
My family spent Christmas in the nursing home.
Traditions are changing.
I still haven’t found a job.
I’m cashiering at Wal-Mart.
But yet…I’m not without hope…and even though my “cheery disposition” get’s dampened from time to time…it gets picked back up again, because…really, what’s the point of being negative?
I have a plan in place…and maybe God’s laughing at me…maybe it’s a plan I should’ve had in place over a year ago. Maybe it’s just taken me this long to really come to terms with things…I don’t know.
But, I’m starting to get what James is talking about…
Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord’s coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. Don’t grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!
Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy. James 5: 7-11
Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise. Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And te prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. James 5: 13-16
And just because I’m facing setbacks doesn’t mean I can’t revel in the little marvels God presents me…a flock of geese flying over at sunset…a fresh blanket of snow on a day off…
Because if anything, even if there is the occasional struggle/crisis of faith, I’m not WITHOUT faith. I’m not without God’s promises that He does have a plan for me…a purpose for me.